Wow! I am soooo glad that people can still reach me through WordPress. I created this account in my first semester of my Masters at Ryerson in 2008. I did a bit more with it at the beginning of second year, and I think that was the last time. So sorry for the delay in responding to comments.
Anyhow, I will check it out once and a while to make sure I am not missing any messages.
Keep in touch,
Mee’Kwetch
Jules
This class will be over very soon and I am starting to panic. Time has passed very quickly this semester. This means that now with the last class soon approaching, I need to summarize what I was able to accomplish this semester. In terms of my thesis, I have been able to narrow it down and keep my thoughts and ideas focused.
Fortunately, I have had the opportunity to submit my (thesis) abstract along the way to different symposiums. I have presented my process three times to other grad students and faculty from several different universities.
I have done a lot of research and continue to do so. I hope to have a first draft completed by February 28th and a second by the end of April 2010. Time lines have saved me from falling behind. For the most part, I guess I have good time management skills. I can prioritize and still have enough time to sleep a good eight hours… LOL
It’s hard to say if I really created a data base for my research, I kind of just know where everything is because I try to keep myself organized as I go along. For me, process is vital and I made sure that I was very careful along my way while listening to Elders and community members.
As far as shooting my film goes, I have a few more things to do:
1. My big scene with my mom is going to be shot this coming Monday (November 23rd) and this is the most important scene of my film.
After that is done, then I just need to shoot some:
2. Office shots of me reading and practising my Cree (Inninuwon).
3. I may also go out with my camera and take some shots of Toronto
I have ordered all my books I think I will need for my thesis and I have tried to purchase books from Indigneou scholars. I did buy some books by Chomsky and Pinker about the mind and language. The reasn why I purchase my books as opposed to going to libraries is because I do not have the freedom to leave my house. I have small children…
I am almost done the second level Cree course at the Native Centre and will be starting the thrid level in Janaury. There are four levels of Cree offered.
Essentially, I have kept myself on track because of necessity — I have family responsibilities and I do have other projects on the go that are also very important to me.
Although I may not have something tangible to show to the class I do have my experiences that I can share.
My eldest son Asivak and I came home from Inukjuak on Friday night completely exhausted. We actually experienced culture shock here in Canada. I have never gone north of the tree line before. I was so pleasantly surprised to see the Inuit children speak their language (Inuktitut) with their families. In their schools they only teach Inuktituk until grade three then they introduce a second language.
The language is strong and everyone in the community speaks.
I hope that Attawapiskat decides to have an immersion program in the near future before it’s too late. It works!
Nanook of the North
Alex is going to love this!
While north on our visit I realized that I was staying with Nanook’s great grand daughter — I think most people know his name was not NANOOK! Her father, “Nanook’s” grandson came to visit us one evening. When we were introduced it took me some time to process who he was… WOW!
He told me that he remembers the filming of Nanook of the North and went on to say that they knew the whole time how they were being portrayed. He spoke about going to Russia to do some shooting… Russia? He also said that he played his grandfather in a remake a few years back.
He doesn’t speak a word of English — but most importantly, he still speaks his language.
I have finally come to the understanding that there’s still lots to do in terms of organizing myself. A few nights back I went to the class on how to write an MFA paper and I left feeling overwhelmed. Yet, I’m glad that I went because now I can pace myself accordingly.
I need to figure out how to manage my time better, since weekends are a no-go for me. The only time I can really get work done is when the twins are sleeping in the afternoon (I’m talking about weekends).
During the week I will have to start early in the day and really focus.
I would like to have a first draft of my paper by February 15th and a second draft by April 15th. I am also considering getting it translated in Cree (as well as having it in syllabics). We will see because that means finding money to hire someone.
After today’s class presentation I realized that I went ahead of myself and should of kept it simple. When the class was over I knew that I did not present how I have organized myself up to this point.
What I have done so far:
Back In September 2008
Mini-Doc #1
Approaching Indigenous Communities
Linda Tuhiwai Smith
Decolonizing Methodologies, Research and Indigenous Peoples
Research in itself is a powerful intervention, even if carried out at a distance, which has traditionally benefited the researcher, and the knowledge base of the dominant group in society. When undertaking research, either across cultures or within a minority culture, it is critical that researchers recognize the power dynamic which is embedded in the relationship with their subjects. Researchers are in receipt of privileged information… They have the power to distort , to make invisible, to overlook, to exaggerate and draw conclusions, based not on factual data, but on assumptions, hidden value judgments, and often downright misunderstandings. Pg. 176
Shawn Wilson
Research Is Ceremony, Indigenous Research Methods
Research is ceremony… The purpose of any ceremony is to build stronger relationships or bridge the distance between our cosmos and us. The research that we do as Indigenous people is a ceremony that allows us a raised level of consciousness and insight into our world. Pg. 137
Responsibility
&
Accountability
Indigenous peoples are the most researched group in the world and because of this we are afraid of being re-victimized. Our knowledge has been misunderstood and never validated. Our culture survived because we believe in reciprocity — you cannot take with giving back. We are all about maintaining balance.
I must admit I was reluctant about approaching my home community of Attawapiskat. I felt like an outsider because I was coming from the city. I was coming from a reality very different from the reserve life. Yet, once I arrived I was welcomed home and my family came together to help me with my film. The community is strong and no one is left out of the circle of community.
Now that I have my footage from my northern home, I need to proceed forward very carefully. They trust me with the knowledge they chose to share and now I need to be responsible and accountable to the community. I need to be accountable to myself as well because I have to live with my choices, and so do they.
This past weekend, I filed all my stuff… lots of stuff. Papers were everywhere, but it felt good to get it done. It helps to get organized when you are not distracted by stuff.
Anyway, my partner laughed at me again (the first time he laughed was when he saw me cleaning my office space last weekend). Yet, he is always in my space… LOL
Now that my desk is cleared I can finally get to work.
I went out last week and purchased some office supplies to help me in my quest to be organized. Time is flying by and I am getting anxious. My days start early with my twins and end late hanging with my older boys. I have very little time to myself to focus on projects. I try to do what needs to be done for school during the day when everyone is at out. My house is quiet but I still find I get distracted.
I feel like I am always racing time.
As most of you may know or not, I am in second level Cree now. I take it at the Native Center here in Toronto, and last night we had a discussion about ownership.
Go figure!
We discussed how Indigenous peoples, particularly Cree (Inninuwak) do not have a word for ownership. It translates to “taking care of” or “looking after”.
Wow, that was so cool to learn. I mean, I have always known and understood that mentality because I grew up with my traditional Cree grandparents… but for it to be confirmed blew my mind.
So it isn’t about owning anything — even knowledge, it is about being accountable.
Hmmmm, interesting!
My thesis is on the process of remembering the Cree language (Inninuwon) and so far I have approximately fifteen hours of footage that I have transferred successfully.
I am pleased with the work I have managed to complete and with the overall direction of my work.
I guess now I am at the stage where I have to start organizing my space. Literally start cleaning my office so I can actually start doing some real writing and research.
My office is messy and so I am thinking of buying a couple of shelves that I can hang, so I can put any books not related to my thesis on — out of sight, out of mind.
Therefore, I will put all the books I need while I am in school on the ground level where I can easily access them. So this is my first project and my deadline I give myself will be by the end of September 2009.
I am confident that things will start to feel less stressful, once I get things I don’t need put away…
So this is my short term goal and next would be to organize my files on my computer, but I won’t get into that now.
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